Updates from Earth

Dearest Kevin,

Whenever I see a couple totally engrossed in their conversation with each other, it always remind me of our animated conversations, normally during our dinners together.

There are just so much things going on with our families and friends which I know you are being updated just by watching over us from above.

We are now watching how fast Matthew, Rachael and Lucas are growing. Matthew is now part of a basketball team (your favourite ball-game), Rachael will soon be the next chatterbox in the family once she warms up to us and Lucas will catch up with you and his Papa in size haha!! Even Ian has grown so much!

The KL group has grown organically quickly over the past 4 years, Nomis and Kim will be parents really really soon!! Most of your friends are already proud parents of 1-2 kids.... naming all will mean this post gets really long :)

Both Mums and Dads are doing well, lest for age catching up... and just to gossip...Mummy Anne still has her astonishing appetite (which never fails to amuse you) and we are constantly awed by her. Your band of brothers and sisters are all well and have always been taking care of me by dropping me calls from whichever country they are in, bringing me out for dinners, dropping visits whilst in Singapore and catching up when I visit them in their host countries.

Not forgetting your daughter and her mother... food is still their No 1 priority. Meagan's mummy is luckier... she gets to go out almost every night enjoying food while Meagan has to rely on what leftover meats gets dished out from her Grandma's soups.

Very quickly, the 1st quarter of 2012 has passed and I have not gone for any trips. So continue to watch me from Heaven whilst I continue to explore the Globe.

Good night my dearest!

Speaking without words

Having attended quite a number of weddings and having friends planning to get married always make me happy that another couple has just started a journey which I enjoyed with Kevin.

Seeing the happy couple walk through the door always remind me how we, during our own wedding preparation, chose a hotel ballroom with a short aisle as both of us weren't comfortable having the spotlight on us while entering the ballroom. I remember minutes before the door opened, he squeezed my hand and smiled at me. Without words spoken, we both knew what the gesture meant ... "Well, the time is finally here and let's just do it".

2 years ago, he tried to open his eyes to look at me and again without words, we both knew what it meant ....."Well, the time is finally here and we have to part".

Most part of my life, Kevin was always the one who pushed me to better myself in life. Without his constant encouragement, nothing felt right. Now, just thinking of him is enough to make me complete my runs, overcome issues at work and cherishing my days with family and friends.

These 2 years felt like a lifetime but I made it through. Surprisingly enough, the sport which I hated is the very sport that made me overcome mental and physical barriers ... running!

I know Kevin will be proud of me... being able to complete runs AND drive myself around without getting lost :)

A New Item for Each New Change

I remember how Kevin would get so excited each time we have new thing cropping up, be it a new trip, a new job, a new addition etc. He would insist on getting something new to welcome the new change.

Many years ago, we went for a holiday at a beach resort. He wanted to be one of those hunks that strode around with fashionable sunnies. At the same time, he didn't want the hassle of changing to his normal specs each time he goes into a building. Hence, he decided to explore wearing contacts. For those who have known him well, he had such small eyes that they would just disappear when he laughs (I didn't dare to make him laugh while he was driving :) ). Every morning, I had to wait more than half an hour for him to put them on cos they just couldn't fit in easily!!!

At the same time, each time I changed a new job (I changed numerous times), he would insist on buying me something new. Well, I shan't complain as these became little treasures with stories... but back then, I would lovingly "grumble" at him but still wear them with pride.

Finally, today is the start of a totally new change in my life. I started a new job positing at a new organization and Kevin isn't around to give me the boost and his usual "surprise" present. However, I carry with me the words of encouragement that he constantly provided. That was all I needed to walk in there with confidence that I will find a way to survive.

Dearest Kevin

Thank you for always looking out for me

I know you are constantly watching me from above

Especially dedicated to you Kevin - my 1st Run

For the many who know me well, running for the LRT/MRT was my only exercise :)

After so many considerations of when I should start doing something about my exercise, I was presented a challenge 2 months ago. My good friend asked me to join her in a Race Against Cancer on the 4th July for a 5km run. I could feel the usual excuse of "maybe next time..." at the tip of my tongue. Somehow, I managed a "Let's Do IT"!!

Very soon, 4th July came and I only managed to train 3 times.... thoughts of not being able to complete kept popping in my head. The 2 friends that ran with me kept me going with encouragements.

At the 4km point, I was starting to get giddy and my legs didn't feel like mine anymore! At that point, all I could think was that if Kevin could bravely fight so well, I could complete this run for him.... AND I DID IT!!

This Run is dedicated to my dearest Kevin

I hope to complete more runs in memory of this gentle giant