Kung-Fu Panda

The moon cake festival brings back fond memories of how Kevin loved eating the moon cakes. The both of us could just sit and while chatting, slowly take numerous small slices of the the moon cakes and before we realize, half the box of moon cakes were gone.

I remember telling him all the funny stories of the young me getting my lanterns burnt and how my brother and sister will try to persuade my mum in buying me a new one so that I wouldn't be so sad. When we had some time, we would go browse through rows of lanterns on sale and start pointing out which sort of designs we used to get when young.

So while I was walking though the shops selling lanterns yesterday, I just like buying one just for him. I couldn't settle on the fish or the dragon and suddenly Lynette spotted another shop. It was spot on ..... there is was and I know Kevin would settle for that too! It is The Kung-Fu Panda!!! I remember Kevin telling me how he enjoyed watching this cartoon and how he laughed at the Panda's funny antics.

So the Kung-Fu Panda is here to stay for at least a few weeks ... I hope it lasts :)

With Me All The Time

Each day when I ride the bus to work, hooked on my i-pod and looking up unto the clear blue sky, I visualize him smiling at me from above.

Many times I have well wishing friends who tell me that I am strong. However, deep down inside I know that I am not. There are so many times that I just tell myself that it is so painful to go on and I just want to be where he is. When there were dreams of us together, I wished I never woke up.

How I long to be able to argue with him every morning who should wake up first just to earn those extra minutes of sleep or to have an occasional prank played on me or even having one of our silly quarrels and so much more.

Being the partner that always think ahead for our future and always conscious in taking care of my feelings, he left me with many encouraging words as he knew how much I cherish and needed them. Although he is so far away from me, his presence is so very near and I could almost hear him repeating those encouraging words at my low moments. After that, somehow, the sky will seem to be brighter, the songs livelier and my heart lighter.

He taught me how to count my blessings and to pray each time the burden gets heavy. Going through this journey and remembering Kevin's fight, it changed my perspective in life. Living my life is not just planning for the future by doing the maths for retirement, it is how to best live my life. 

Even though we have been apart for 9 months, to me it just seems like yesterday I heard his robust laughter and holding his big hands. Having these memories and his assurance, I made it for 9 months and will continue to make it through.

The Scorching Sun

The last few weeks posed a challenge to me in keeping the turf on Kevin's plot as green as it can be. Even with the hiring of a care-keeper to assist in watering the turf within the weekdays couldn't save the grass. What made it worse was the heat reflecting from the black granite surrounding it.

It was so sad to see my beautiful purple flowers (planted behind the headstone) dried up into crispy bits. The picture on the left is when it was blooming. 

Nevertheless, my always encouraging mother had many ideas to help remove the plants and arranged my butterflies around the back to make it look alive. Out came different suggestions what to plant next that is able to survive the dessert heat. Well, it looks like a trip to the garden is to be made this weekend!

Meanwhile, I hope the weather could be a little kinder and gentler to revive the grass and plants around... and of course especially the little turf specially planted for my Dearest!

My little GodDaughter II

Proudly I present to you my beautiful goddaughter II, Caridee. 

So angelic she is when she sleeps and such pure innocence she portrays when she smiles. Those pretty eyes will stare at me when I gently rock her and sing a song to her. Just carrying her in my arms gives me much joy that new life brings to one. 

It was heartwarming when her parents, Wilson and Elaine, asked me to be her godmother as Kevin and I have been waiting for her arrival ever since we received the good news.