Someone's statement to me recently brought me back in time when I pondered over the same concern. I was then searching for answers about Christianity and back then, between the both of us, I was deemed to be of "stronger faith" than Kevin. Then, I looked around and inwardly asked myself, "Shouldn't it be my husband through faith and knowledge, be the one leading me to deeper faith and understanding of Christianity?".
After journeying with Kevin, I witnessed how Kevin's faith grew by leaps and bounds and it was in no way because he was led by his wife of "stronger" faith. The level of faith in me paled in comparison to him. His hungry need to learn more about the faith first gave new meaning to discipline in our lives.
To us, even as new Christians, we had to work hard in putting aside time to read the Bible together and discuss new passages with each other. There were times, the drama serials seemed much more exciting and tempting than reading the Bible passages. Mostly it was Kevin who had more discipline and perseverance and I learnt from him.
During his fight with cancer, Kevin experienced other complications. In the earlier months, we constantly reminded each other to say a short prayer whenever we met with difficulties (big or small) throughout the day. Hence, when Kevin was faced with the many complications and challenges, we would reach out to each other and say a prayer together. Situations somehow works out by his doctors offering assistance or that a desperate call to his old SGD ward was received by his nurse who by recognizing my voice and Kevin's conditions was able to help me at 12 midnight.
Looking how far Kevin has come, his growth in knowledge and faith was certainly not led by a "stronger spouse". It was his hunger and discipline in setting aside quiet time daily to gain wisdom from the words and teaching of The Lord.
I have since then came to realization that if I yearn to grow in faith and knowledge,
first, I need to make the effort myself.
